“i think i've always fought stillness
with chaos… maybe because it feels easier…
you can't be shaken from your footing if
you've never even had it, right?but now i'm being asked to
stay still in the uncertainty, to try to learn
to breathe easy in all this delicate nuance…
to start to question the way i've made such a habit
out of fearful, so breath-held and chest-tight,
always just hoping for gentle in the unknown…because what if life doesn't have to just “not hurt”…
what if there could be something so beautiful
waiting for me in the unknown”– butterflies rising